questions

a question that haunts many people, in many ways...for me, its a question of regret. the regret of everything i havent or didnt say, that i didnt do...things that now cannot be changed, no matter how hard or how long you think about it...or more specifically, them. many words and feelings come out from that question...guilt, pain, love but most importantly-loss. the loss of oppotunity..the loss of someone... or the loss of something you love.

your not alone

i know im not the only one who feels like they have to always impress people..or that 'special someone'. 

i know im not the only one who has to sit there and watch the person you like so much, flirt with your friends.

and i know im not the only one who's had to suffer love.

every girls dream is to have the perfect boyfriend who loves her for who she is and she is the only girl he ever thinks about-when he goes to bed at night and when he wakes up-shes the girl.

but guys like that are hard to find..you think you've found one and then they go and do something stupid which just proves they're not even close to that guy.

when you find out that the person you let in completely, had you playing one of his stupid games..having you as his 'back-up, security' by you being his girlfriend but he actually had a much more 'exciting' girl on his arm aswell as you..and when you find out. you blame yourself.

'im not good enough' 'shes so much better than me' millions of questions go unanswered

but just know that your not the one to blame..

you've got your family and your friends, the people that actually care about you..it does get better..

and i know that saying is really patronizing..but sooner or later it will become easier to understand, just give it time